I presently have many thoughts. Why do I feel like it is necessary for me to preface a blog about my thoughts, with that statement?
I figure because this entry may turn into another one of my rants.
**Sigh** Here goes nothing..
Okay. I feel like I have been on a spiritual tear lately. I feel like I am catching myself doing/saying/thinking bad things, and stopping myself. I am trying to make myself the best person I can be. Most importantly, I have been going to God more. On a moment by moment basis, rather than when I get to it. It has helped improve my morale, in turn, making it much more enjoyable to go throughout my days.
A lot happened this past weekend. I went on a road trip with my youth pastor, to a few of the state colleges. Along the way, I learned many things.
The first thing that I learned, is how to be happy, and free from momentary worries. In the car on Friday morning, windows down (not too good of an A/C in his car (side note: I sweat the most than anyone I know, and have this ridiculously insane body heat that seems to have a hard time cooling down)), cruising through the state, I realized somethings.
Why do we worry about the little things? I know we may ask ourselves this on the daily, but seriously! I wonder this all the time, but as I began to sweat through my shirt on the car ride, I realized I have changed. The guy that used to get twirked out about being uncomfortable, hot, etc., was the same guy just chilling (figuratively, obviously). As a result of this discovery about myself, I learned something else.
There is more to life than to have to think too deeply in the momentary, small picture. Finding myself forced into a position where I would formerly be extremely uncomfortable, I was able to embrace life.
TANGENT: This is my new thing. A new realization, if you will. What we have is a gift. I believe I have already acknowledged that in a previous entry. But next time you get in your car, roll the windows down, drive the speed limit, feel the wind, and embrace it. Next time you see something, a flower, or a tree, or even freshly cut grass, take a look, a smell, and embrace it. How do you embrace life? Here's kind of how it struck me the other day: Jesus is God's gift to us. Naturally, as church has taught us, we are supposed to embrace Him. But think about it for a second. When it is a holiday or our birthday, and we may receive gifts...how do we treat them? Let's say you open the gift, and you despise it. So you put it on the shelf to hang. Not really paying it any mind. Now, what if you really think it's okay? So you store it somewhere, and use it every once in a while, right? And what if you open the gift you have received, and you absolutely LOVE it!? So you use the item to it's greatest ability, until it runs out. Now put Jesus in the place of the material gift you may have gotten. Is He just hanging on your shelf, used every once in a while, or is He being used to his greatest ability? See, the neat thing that I have learned, is that Jesus is the greatest gift we have received...ever! He isn't a lame, that just gets tossed into your closet. He isn't just okay...and gets used periodically. He isn't used until He runs out either. He is ever lasting.
As I drove home from school today, I had the thought in my head...Jesus is always there, God is always in us since the beginning of time. It's just a matter of how you use the gift.
P.S. a few updates...
I have had a week of awesomeness, and have decided that I have added the goal to go to seminary upon completion of undergraduate studies. It is something that I have thought about in the past, but now I just feel so called to do it. God has placed it on my heart for a reason. And with that, I am thoroughly, newly excited for what God has to offer in my life. Yeah there are going to be times where it may be rough, but knowing He is always there is quite reassuring.